Well it's been a month since sweet baby Cassidy was born. I've kept myself super busy with a little family vacation and now I'm back to work. Now that I'm back to work its nice to keep myself busy but I'm ready to have a social life again. So I'm currently looking for a new job where the hours are more sent and not 9am to 8:45pm. Who ever thought a dental office would be open that late. I know I never did!! But honestly I never could have made it without my wonderful family and friends that have supported along the way. I'm so grateful to my heavenly father who has blessed me with those family and friends. He's also blessed me with a great peace of mind to know that what I did was the right choice.
The most frequent asked question at work is "How do you look at pictures and talk about Cassidy without missing her?" Truth is I miss her. I miss her more than you can imagine. Some days all I want to do is pick her up and hold her. To know that I will be missing the first time she rolls over, crawls, walks I wont be there makes me sad. But at the same time I know that someday I will have the to opportunity to have more children and raise them. I have given Cassidy the life she deserves. Aaron and Erika can not have children for some reason and I have given them the opportunity to raise her. They will be able to give her so much more right now than I can. I know that they love her as much as I do.
Thanks Aaron and Erika for posting this Beautiful picture of Cassidy. Poor girl got my nose.
She's beautiful... love that picture :) You're amazing and I admire your strength and willingness to give her what you feel is best for her. Adoption is a very unselfish act that requires sacrifice... how wonderful that you could give such a beautiful gift to Aaron and Erika. :)
ReplyDeleteI get those questions too; you describe it so well. It IS sad, it IS hard, there ARE times where you want so badly to just have her in your arms but that wonderful peace follows so quickly and it's all ok
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