An Inspirational week

This week has been full of inspiration. I've been praying about what my next big decision in my life should be and I've quit my job. This decision did not come with out a ton of prayers and pondering. I believe that this choice is the best for me now. Another piece of inspiration was on Wednesday. Wednesday is the day that Aaron and Erika update their blog and post new pictures of Cassidy. As I was looking through them and reading out what's going on in their life I was reassured again of my choice. I know I made the best choice for Cassidy. Then that night I sat down to read my scriptures as I usually do. I opened up the book of Mormon to 3Nephi and read about Christ coming to the Americas. He spoke to the people and told them needed to repent. Christ showed them the holes in his hands and feet. All I thought about was the price Heavenly father paid so that we can return to live with him again. After placing Cassidy and "loosing" her I could only imagine the pain Heavenly Father went through just so I can return to live with him again. I have promised myself that I will not settle for anything less than the Celestial Kingdom. I want so very much to live with my Heavenly Father again and be as close to him as I can here on this Earth. Lastly today at church I received a wonderful gift. I was given a birth mother basket. It was full of feel good stuff to make me feel pretty. And a amazing poem written by another birth mother. Its called 

My Little Butterfly

You were finally here,

My little butterfly,

You were placed in my arms,

And I couldn't help but cry.

You were so Precious so Beautiful,

I stared at you with pride

Your hands so tiny,

Your eyes so bright.

You were finally here,

My Little Butterfly.

And I knew it would be hard

To say goodbye.

I cried for you at night

How could I let my

Little Butterfly go?

Then I thought of the new world

You will see.

Of the loving parents that will 

Take care of thee,

And I felt Peace

You were finally here,

My Little Butterfly.

And no matter how hard it is,

I must say goodbye

So, open your wings

And don't be afraid to fly.

Fly away to a new life

Where opportunities are

At every door

And my love around every corner.

You were finally here,

My Little Butterfly.

But, quickly you left

To live your new life

You’ll always be in my heart.

Your memory in my every thought.

Those tiny hands,

And bright eyes.

I will forever love you,

My Little Butterfly.

By: Gina Crotts

I've made it a month!!!

Well it's been a month since sweet baby Cassidy was born. I've kept myself super busy with a little family vacation and now I'm back to work. Now that I'm back to work its nice to keep myself busy but I'm ready to have a social life again. So I'm currently looking for a new job where the hours are more sent and not 9am to 8:45pm. Who ever thought a dental office would be open that late. I know I never did!! But honestly I never could have made it without my wonderful family and friends that have supported along the way. I'm so grateful to my heavenly father who has blessed me with those family and friends. He's also blessed me with a great peace of mind to know that what I did was the right choice.

The most frequent asked question at work is "How do you look at pictures and talk about Cassidy without missing her?" Truth is I miss her. I miss her more than you can imagine. Some days all I want to do is pick her up and hold her. To know that I will be missing the first time she rolls over, crawls, walks I wont be there makes me sad. But at the same time I know that someday I will have the to opportunity to have more children and raise them. I have given Cassidy the life she deserves. Aaron and Erika can not have children for some reason and I have given them the opportunity to raise her. They will be able to give her so much more right now than I can. I know that they love her as much as I do.

Thanks Aaron and Erika for posting this Beautiful picture of Cassidy.  Poor girl got my nose.

Two is better than one!

The Adoptive couple (Aaron and Erika) with birth parents (Paul and myself). And baby Cassidy.

The Hearts of Two Mothers

Here is a wonderful poem that the Adoptive Mother Wrote for Cassidy and I.
I Cherish this poem so much. You mothers and criers get some tissue ready you may cry!! 

Her Love for you began long ago,
And I know continues still.
She loved you more than you may ever know...
She put your future above her own will

She felt you move, and took great care,
To ensure you had the best.
She chose your dad and I
To be the parents you'd bless.

You hold the hearts of two mothers,
And got the best from each one.

I see her light in your eyes,
And her strength in your soul.
You are the hope of my heart,
And the joy that makes it full.

You have the hearts of two mother,
While others have only one.

She brought you safely from heaven above,
And placed you in our care.
The privilege of being your mother,
Is a miracle I'm honored to bear.

I will be forever grateful
For the mother who brought you to me.
I'll forever try to be worthy of the miracle,
She carried and gave to me.

You hold the hearts of two Mothers,
And got the best from each one.

I see her light in your eyes,
And her strength in your soul.
You are the hope that makes it full.

You have the hearts of two mothers,
While others have only one.

It's just another day

To start out I want to share a little bit about me.

I'm new at this whole blogging thing but everyone loves it so I've decided to start one of my own and share my story. My blog is called Love Never Ending because recently I have placed a child for adoption. Some of my friends know this and some don't. I kept it a secret because I was ashamed of the choices I made. I never thought that I would have been in that situation but I was and I made a sacrifice I believe only a mother can understand. I Love my little girl more than anything in the world and I placed her with the most wonderful parents any little girl could ask for. Aaron and Erika will give sweet baby Cassidy all the love she'll ever need and more. But Cassidy has something special she has two mothers and two fathers. She will always be apart of my life. Therefore the name of my blog Love never ending, my love for her is just beginning and as I get older she will always have a special place in my heart.