An Inspirational week

This week has been full of inspiration. I've been praying about what my next big decision in my life should be and I've quit my job. This decision did not come with out a ton of prayers and pondering. I believe that this choice is the best for me now. Another piece of inspiration was on Wednesday. Wednesday is the day that Aaron and Erika update their blog and post new pictures of Cassidy. As I was looking through them and reading out what's going on in their life I was reassured again of my choice. I know I made the best choice for Cassidy. Then that night I sat down to read my scriptures as I usually do. I opened up the book of Mormon to 3Nephi and read about Christ coming to the Americas. He spoke to the people and told them needed to repent. Christ showed them the holes in his hands and feet. All I thought about was the price Heavenly father paid so that we can return to live with him again. After placing Cassidy and "loosing" her I could only imagine the pain Heavenly Father went through just so I can return to live with him again. I have promised myself that I will not settle for anything less than the Celestial Kingdom. I want so very much to live with my Heavenly Father again and be as close to him as I can here on this Earth. Lastly today at church I received a wonderful gift. I was given a birth mother basket. It was full of feel good stuff to make me feel pretty. And a amazing poem written by another birth mother. Its called 

My Little Butterfly

You were finally here,

My little butterfly,

You were placed in my arms,

And I couldn't help but cry.

You were so Precious so Beautiful,

I stared at you with pride

Your hands so tiny,

Your eyes so bright.

You were finally here,

My Little Butterfly.

And I knew it would be hard

To say goodbye.

I cried for you at night

How could I let my

Little Butterfly go?

Then I thought of the new world

You will see.

Of the loving parents that will 

Take care of thee,

And I felt Peace

You were finally here,

My Little Butterfly.

And no matter how hard it is,

I must say goodbye

So, open your wings

And don't be afraid to fly.

Fly away to a new life

Where opportunities are

At every door

And my love around every corner.

You were finally here,

My Little Butterfly.

But, quickly you left

To live your new life

You’ll always be in my heart.

Your memory in my every thought.

Those tiny hands,

And bright eyes.

I will forever love you,

My Little Butterfly.

By: Gina Crotts

I've made it a month!!!

Well it's been a month since sweet baby Cassidy was born. I've kept myself super busy with a little family vacation and now I'm back to work. Now that I'm back to work its nice to keep myself busy but I'm ready to have a social life again. So I'm currently looking for a new job where the hours are more sent and not 9am to 8:45pm. Who ever thought a dental office would be open that late. I know I never did!! But honestly I never could have made it without my wonderful family and friends that have supported along the way. I'm so grateful to my heavenly father who has blessed me with those family and friends. He's also blessed me with a great peace of mind to know that what I did was the right choice.

The most frequent asked question at work is "How do you look at pictures and talk about Cassidy without missing her?" Truth is I miss her. I miss her more than you can imagine. Some days all I want to do is pick her up and hold her. To know that I will be missing the first time she rolls over, crawls, walks I wont be there makes me sad. But at the same time I know that someday I will have the to opportunity to have more children and raise them. I have given Cassidy the life she deserves. Aaron and Erika can not have children for some reason and I have given them the opportunity to raise her. They will be able to give her so much more right now than I can. I know that they love her as much as I do.

Thanks Aaron and Erika for posting this Beautiful picture of Cassidy.  Poor girl got my nose.